Sapphire4723

Sheesh, I've hardly been on deviant art in the past... well, year. Dang. I feel like I've died on here. I've lost touch with most of the friends I've made here on the site, I've failed to keep up with the dozens of amazing dA artists I watch, and other than Invader Zim work, I've hardly submitted anything original.

It's not just my dA life – this entire past year I've felt artistically dead. I don't know whether it's just a lack of artistic inspiration, or just feeling bogged down from heading the Soapy Waffles animation project. I almost felt (still feel) ashamed coming on to the deviant art website knowing that I've been gone for so long. Ever since working on the project, I've lost touch with not only my friends online and off... but I've lost touch with myself. I've fallen in a rut of only working on Invader Zim works and not trying to improve the areas where I am weak artistically. All of my ideas, WIPs, and goals have taken a back-burner, and they're still there. Slowly boiling away. I don't regret starting the SW project, or any of my choices I've made in the past year. But I feel that if I continue on the path I'm on, I'll stop moving forward as a creative individual and will fail to grow.

Well, now that my rambling and complaining is over, it's time to throw a bit of optimism in this ol' journal post.

SO.

InvaderCON is finally over. School starts next week. And my CalArts portfolio submission is due in a few months. On the path to my aspirations of art mastery, cute Japanese figurines, and world conquest, CalArts is the next step I need to take. I want to build my portfolio so it becomes a bright, molten hunk of paper that'll blow away scholarship competition (not to mention the judges' eyeballs. Sorry!). Over the next few months I plan on rebooting my personal journey to become a better artist in skill, and also getting back in touch with my passion for art. No more excuses, no more distractions.

So for you, dear reader, who so kindly bothered to read my ramblings, thank you. Don't hesitate to throw a note my way, as I enjoy good company. Wish me luck, and I hope you'll follow my progress and failures as I continue my journey as an artist, and as a human being.